Thursday, May 17, 2012

I am disappointed with this blog. I feel like it has lost the free-spirited feel and purpose it was created for. I look at recent posts, and though they are still infested with acerbic humor and my trademark phrased adjectives that-look-like-this, I feel like I've lost my voice. 

Not only are the past articles just composed of book/movie/cellphone reviews and vacation recaps which nobody really cares about, the thoughts are dry and painfully robotic. Yes, there are still advocacy themed articles but they are less than before and far in between.

Where is the spontaneity? Where are the personal insights that I once wanted to share to the world? Where are the amusing observations about the roller coaster ride that is everyday life? The good, the bad, and the downright humiliatingly hilarious

I started this blog as a personal haven for all those little quirky impulses my neurons keep on emitting several times a day in the most inappropriate of times.  I guess my mistake these days is holding everything I write at arms length and watching it take form while devoid of actual passion and conviction, the kind of writing that comes out which reeks the impression of doing chores and things-that-you-just-had-to-do.

This personal blog has become less and less personal for a long time now, and I hope you're with me when I say that I think it's time to go back to the basics. And yes, that phrase just reminded me of underwear billboard ads.

So with that, I will shun the inner procrastinator in me that has long been reclining in the La-Z-Boy of my left cerebral hemisphere like she own the place. I don't blame her, she has been there forever and I oftentimes give her treats like when I spend hours on Facebook and Twitter just reading (and liking) random crap my friends and total strangers post on their walls and feeds, half of the time thinking "I wish I have her life" or "Waaay too much information. I'll just pretend I didn't see that."

And of course, there's always the lethal viral pet videos that's just Satan's way of telling you to waste your life for him, one adorable YouTube clip at a time.

But I'll be honest. My track record regarding resolutions doesn't exactly paint a picture of absolute adherence to said self-promises. But we'll see. I might be able to banish thy inner procrastinator permanently to the depths of Mordor or Tartarus, or wherever the heck it can stay and not bother me again.

Meanwhile, let me leave you with a photo of an adorable puppy sleeping on a cellphone straight from the 90's "I-have-a-flip-phone-I'm-so-cool" era. 

Just because.


4 comments:

The Social Scientist said...

Writing is like playing the piano. First you play by the rules, then you play by the heart. The same is true with love.

All writers go to this phase when writing becomes more of a chore than a passion. But this too shall pass. You'll get out of it, I'm sure.

Clarriscent said...

I like your analogy! :) Thanks! I don't know, I guess I just wanted to somehow go back to the old ways of having a blog to share your thoughts on anything rather than just a compilation of multimedia reviews. Thanks for reading! Wish me luck!

Ers said...

aw! you may find flaws in your blog but don't be to hard on yourself bro.

It's my first time to visit your blog and after going through all your written articles in the past, I must say it's not bad at all.

You just continue to write what you think should be written here and soon you'll find the satisfaction you're wanting.

: )

Clarriscent said...

@Ers:

Haha thank you. I don't think I'm being hard on myself, it's just I feel like the momentum's gone and I have to do something to capture it back from whatever black hole it slipped into. Dropped by your blog too and I have to say it's good. Keep writing, shall we? :)

Post a Comment

Blog Widget by LinkWithin